payday madness leave what degree of internal processes. Somehow it bugs me slowly even for me to deal with it, but apparently has to be so. I think I've discovered what my "mission". Quite simple and yet so difficult birth ... and it brings me to comply with my past ... comply look. When it comes to acquiring things, the metadata and other levels of observation, sorting, value-free observation and so on, my mind pretty quickly and away ... compared to my other "interests". Physically I'll hang myself behind the most. This is per se quite great, I find ... but I see more often that some parts of me have to come afterwards. It has struck me, the hard-hitting self-loading Rated a method that is quite helpful to me is this - I would even say it is the only Instrument, which helps me just to get everything together and transform. Maybe it's occurred to me sometime before, but in the last few days I understood clearly that the only "job" for which my heart beats, which is the entrepreneur. It is the activity in which I fully BIN. It is the only thing in which I know 100% that it is a shame really for the economy, I'm just not fully aware of this. It is the "job" where will my activities, skills, training, etc. can come together to form a whole. The "job" where I serve myself and everyone else. I write Therefore in this job tittle, because I "real" entrepreneurship can not be defined as a job - it's an inner passion. Entrepreneurship has for me relatively little to do with "numbers", except for a portion of outstanding number sense, which you must bring. entrepreneurship, in my view even has much more to do with the love of man and its potential, the love of things in general than with the actual "content", which is produced by the company. So I've always seen and acted upon ... which brings me right back in my past. And it helps immensely, just quite linear considered to settle with what was ... because in regard to my ideas, ideals, values and visions, I am quite failed, even though I more than ever, this "was" because I'm convinced of it. But still I have failed in this regard, especially in the last 12 years, fully. I have a little something like this implemented, but that is so minimal ... "Full speed ahead" looks different. One might almost say, my little company that I was booked three years, was like a baptism of fire, I have unfortunately not passed. And yet they were so stupid even throw me out and let me keep the same time as a guarantor. How could I be stupid so ... The next step
supposedly (according to the company), my ideas and co. implement as organizational development was also in the pants. It led me to have even less design space (as in a company in which it voluntarily and even self-selected, are not suitable partners) - and noted that it is simply not possible to pay off old debts in the normal way again . Above all, it brought me to become smaller and smaller ... up at the end not really a confidence as to what I am and can was there. It's pretty intense Tobac, I think ... I can already start to cry, whether of their own choosing this way of life. What I have there only for one: sorry: crap knocked together for me ... herrjee. So now I'm here, entrepreneur without company, and wanted to think a bit about what that means for implementation now technically ... Instead, I caught up my physique. Well, I'll hold the other time, the process can not be stopped anyway and goes his own way ... your marymi ps: better to mainstream, do not worry, I'm fine, I do not need a therapist. in a few years you know what I meant.
pps: if anyone of you also goes to ... just it made a document link in my favorite forum to one, which describes the current astronomical constellation. I just read it and describes it at that level exactly what I write in the last days of his own experience here so ... Who is it interested here for your "Star Dance in October 2009" . was
sees Alien Land: anti support in recent days by some of my friends: Thank you very Mara , Kiri and miss_z ! In my own résumé of our discussions, I notice that more planes than usual consciously active, parallel, such as Photoshop layers they are "over" each other, in different transparencies. Also what the subconscious is pottering, in a positive way ... It is as though at lower levels, which I am not aware of much going on and everything is flowing and resolve - it simply tinkers to himself, if I thought now is to do or not. If something is ready, it ploppt to the surface, to consciousness, so I used at that level to "handle" is. One of the things I still do not really get together, items "linearity" and "multidimensional". It's strange and paradoxical, but now I have the distinct feeling that the "multidimensional" experience is, if I focus myself on the "linearity". Hm, no, this wording is not true ... anners: The last 10 years it was as if to open various channels and more and more visible has been one of what not to appear to this reality. My adventure was to discover this, to deal with them, bringing them together to get an "oversight" and so on. I have always tried to express the discovered, implemented, installed, in my "job opportunities", but I could have let remain of good cheer, it would not work. this regard because nothing seems for some time to "pass" more, nothing "exciting" experience - with the basis and intention that I had met at the beginning of this period, 200/2001,: namely, after 13 years of my leave "Verstandsweg" and instead "Shapewear" to go - that my former image with the wall degradation. Or, in spiritual and esoteric circles: "Walking the ascent. What has been the way to do anything more with the concept of "enlightenment", to me anyway. (Enlightenment seems to me to be something different -. Enlightenment has nothing to do with the work that begins now I think "enlightenment" has long been something that has to achieve is "worth" and in the first place many to realize " become "as much as possible -. mind-evolution-containing) come at once now completely in to me what it means to be arrived It means our consciousness here now." apply "to . All that experienced in recent years, many processes, was developed ... all it takes to turn it into something. (The "new world" stated.) And this is a very funny feeling ... When you arrive at once Unfortunately, since that is not and says. Congratulations, you've done it (well, a little bit but, in one of my daydreams was so:)!) And at the same starts the next path, which belongs to the old, yet is completely different. In this moment I write this, I can see the very first time! What will happen now, as the total run continues ... crass. It's like the only way back more quickly - or better: It has only just learned to fly and a few seconds later it crashes to Earth, to learn a new walking. Because if you can fly, one will go differently. But how, I do not know. While most learn to fly now, to catch some of our people to learn the new steps - Learnig by doing. I think this fall has just happened / is happening. We come in slippers, the ... so to speak;) A very different work than before and the last years is usual. Maybe not the work itself, but in any case, the method of execution. Energetically, it looks as if the energy to fly those who are beginning to learn, pale, while the energy of those who now learn new steps, lights - it's reassuring to know that they will not be overlooked. No, this is not even "Heaven on Planet Earth" ... But of this building. And there is one crucial difference from the last few years: That we (were able to see only in recent months to the general context) that "remainder", that this restart now, can consciously experience, knowing what is and happens. Interestingly, I feel as to what is now much closer and clearer and more comfortable than with respect to the many "energy" relationships and structures in recent years - I think I know myself in the now starting phase very much better " off ", as in the energy work phase of the last 10 years. And so the crisis was yet again an output ... and now I would like at least a miracle this week (as I'm self-created but packed with your messenger (s). Do not be, for me unpack is not much time ...) Also a few concrete Clues to go on. And a few happy moments in between would also be great! marymi Your:) ps: It is also reassuring that one can be held not already crazy as it always was the case - I hope;)
flow and job description Anti Flow, accompanies me for about 8 days is pretty exhausting. It was long ago, I was stuck in such a hole ... and I did not think that the violent again in this form happening again. Maybe it's just so hard because the last few weeks had been so different ... and the "world" was something visible, in which we move into ... Shortly after my last posting Lauren Gorgo wrote a new comment . It pretty much describes what I find even just ... Unfortunately, helping out one's not really out of the hole, but at least it gives me back a little bit of calm and confidence, it may reasonably assume, as it's at grad. The side effect of this is small but big-perceived crisis, as is usually with me, thinking about whether I should make a change in direction and, if so, in what direction and especially how. This has led me to include a "job description": a job I like would, even though I have no idea this even exists obs;) Such situations usually I experience before falling asleep. I'm beginning to think something, it becomes a kind of waking dream, which continues at some point by itself and I can observe simultaneously. This time it was an investor, who compiled a new, small team of consultants. A kind of task force, consisting of lateral thinkers, other information has prepared than the normal, who is also empathetic and able to implement their knowledge. should build new companies working in other areas and structures, as usually, if financed by investors. I sat before him, was something surprise, but did anyway, I'm right - and "warned" it in some ways ahead of me ... him I had quite a few properties on (I was actually quite in my element anyway) and he grinned broadly and said at the end: "Exactly why I would want to have with the team." I had this approximate "job description" many times in this kind of dreams, but never so clearly and with interview [Dear investor, this appeal to you? Log in love];) marymi Your:)
[or flying people learn how to run] in the middle of chaos I find myself in a strange hole grad ... in the last two days has been transformed internal energy ball that is bigger, but I have no idea how "to implement express /" the ... organize no matter what I think (going out to paint, write, design, ...), nothing seems appropriate. At the same time crashed into my outside, because I will "fear & worry" ... Somehow, nothing fits together really.
All Sowohlalsauch meet grad in a wasteland of inner wisdom, pinning, meta-level, 3D, xD, human existence, VerflixtUndZugenäht, divine distance, New, Old, change, stop, sadness, joy, anger, power, classical, rock, ChillOut, candles or not, doing or not doing, and if so what, but his like, but this wk kinda like just before the big bang. Or deflagration, imploding, exploding, dissolving in air ... Way, Here, There There. Perhaps thoughts-emotions-Sort was yesterday ... At least not today. marymi
3-2-1 -> work falls in recent days to me reinforced that the, uh changed communication. Maybe only in my perception - and in my conversations - but it's an interesting phenomenon. Who is in charge of its own development, or psychology, or with New Age spirituality, found this one at some point, which the Reflect things: External appears what is inside. Very helpful in emotional conflict - especially if followed by all interlocutors that approach. If you very prone to self-reflection, it can also damage some point - because you can quickly lose balance and forget which one himself also reflects the other. According to my former world and the realization that no cause and effect sequence but one and the same, I decided to look at it one or two years, my environment now different: No more mirrors for me. I admit that my reflections were at the time more to the nerves. One result of the experiment was that I very much differentiated perceived, whether the topic of the opponent, his emotion, etc. had something to do with its own theme from me or not. Actually came from the much more rare than I thought. And I could count on, that was me then immediately aware. So I could go on focusing on the specific own topics. Another result was that I set myself a "lost" occurred: namely, is also pretty stupid, if you do not mirror his "humanistic identity". So know yourself and see if one has not overlooked that one reflects this. If I now share with some people happen to something wonderful. The topics actually hang together very constructively and effectively! But it's more of a "joint" go further than, as before, a "record of the subject" and any frickelt it not for themselves or. I was clear yesterday during a meeting with Susan. We responded by introducing the solution to a "blind spot" in the call content selfishness. Say just about "OK, what we talked about 5 minutes ago ... You told me abc ... xyz ... brought me to the contents of this in relation to you is the" solution "...". how I experience the more recently with other people. It operates within the discussion composed of a unit out, which is then differentiated expressed verbally. It's a different feeling as "mirroring" because you act together, even if you call different positions. (The "works" not yet all, I realize, but I will observe the times;)) Another difference is that it has nothing to do with "work" to do - there is no gravity, no Mühsahl.. And it's fast - very fast. At the moment I find it more difficult to perceive everything at the same time and again to express: The level "unit" that level "exchange as a man" to stay with me and at a time with his other. And all are limpid in exchange. A few days ago I had liked to have even a couple of interesting experiences in terms Multidimsionales being. So something "spectacular" as the time jump half years ago. I think the communication thing left now, not really - but it will do well to do with multidimensionality have ... :) Your marymi
